I haven't had one of these moments yet in Taiwan, so I guess it has been a long time coming.
I am still not used to how serious the students are. They don't laugh very often, unless of course their crazy foreign English teacher is doing an impression of Lady Gaga or a modified Thriller dance. Their demeanor sometimes makes me wonder if I am impacting them at all.
I see my students twice every week, which I do not think of as a long time. However, that doesn't negate the fact that I have pairs of eyes focused on me...watching every move I make...listening to every word I say - for a solid hour. Still, I feel like there is a lack of connection between us. For starters, I have around 55 kids in each class. I barely remember their names and classes are short, so there isn't much time for the "getting to know you piece". I often feel like they aren't affected by me...at all. It really made me miss the relationships I built with my students back at home. I guess I felt like I was at a standstill while trying to build a relationship with some of these kids. I wondered if some of them even knew my name!
This week I realized that just because they don't always show it...doesn't mean it isn't there.
I had my kids do an activity where they wrote down a list of things that they were thankful for. Of course, I had to have the discussion about being thankful for "special" things versus being thankful for just "things". It all started when one of my students said he was thankful for his computer. I tried to get him to understand that although you may LOVE your computer (who doesn't?), you aren't thankful for it the same way you are thankful for your parents...or your sight...or your freedom. They started to get it, and no longer did it become an activity to just randomly write down any vocabulary word (some kids put things like clock, pencils, pens before this conversation)...but instead it became an activity where they thought of something special in Chinese, and then with a partner figured out what it meant in English.
I then handed out a worksheet where the students filled in what they were thankful for inside leaves. They colored them in and cut them out so we could hang them inside the classroom.
As the students handed them in, I adored their work, and let them know how proud I was of them.
I am thankful for myself.
I am thankful for my freedom.
I am thankful for Taiwan.
I am thankful for my dreams.
I am thankful for my sight. I am thankful for my hearing.
I also noticed something else. Many of them were thankful for me. They came in...one after the other...after the other.
I was flooded with warmth and pride.
I am so thankful that I have the opportunity and the pleasure to facilitate learning in a room of anxious and motivated students. I am thankful that they respect me, and that they appreciate what I do. I am thankful that I have the chance to learn from them, just as much as they learn from me. I am thankful that even though my time each week may seem limited, that I am still able to build relationships with them regardless of a language barrier. Most of all, I am thankful that I truly love, value, and own the tremendous responsibility of being a teacher.
Three months in, and my students have continued to amaze me. It is moments like these that make me realize how lucky I am to have found my passion.
Have a look at some more of our Thanksgiving Day work!
Never underestimate the power of the hand turkey!